PINE CITY, MINN. – Finally facing her abuser in court, Lindsay Tornambe sat at a prosecutor's table Friday, her voice shaking, and recounted how feared religious leader Victor Barnard had sexually assaulted her starting at age 13, and how it continues to haunt her.
"I felt so alone, because I was," she said, fighting tears as she described how she didn't have anyone to turn to in the cloistered River Road Fellowship community Barnard once led in east central Minnesota.
She's had PTSD, she said. Nightmares. Trust issues. Feelings of abandonment. Suicidal thoughts. Anxiety.
When she found the strength to tell law enforcement about nine years of abuse at Barnard's hands, prompting authorities to go on a manhunt for him all the way to Brazil, she felt she finally had some power over him, she said.
"I used to see Victor as this powerful and monstrously strong man," Tornambe said. "I am his downfall. … He cannot break me. … He is the one that is weak. He will be known all over the world as a sexual predator."
Tornambe and a second victim, Jess Schlinsky, delivered victim impact statements Friday in a Pine County courtroom crowded with media and supporters as Barnard, who had pleaded guilty to two counts of felony sexual assault, was formally sentenced to 30 years in prison for the assaults.
Barnard, wearing blue sweats, handcuffs and shackles, sat silently and mostly looked straight ahead as the victims spoke. Before Judge P. Hunter Anderson officially imposed the sentence — the statutory maximum for first-degree criminal sexual conduct — Barnard stood and delivered a brief statement:
"God is good and his word is faithful and true," he said, speaking softly but clearly. "I have not walked in his goodness."