A jagged rock pointed at my throat, and I squeezed past it as water swirled around my chest. My family and I had just entered Actun Tunichil Muknal — a giant limestone cave deep in the jungles of western Belize — in search of 1,000-year-old Mayan sacrificial victims. Above us, water dripped from stalactites, while tiny gray bats squirmed in crevices like mice. I shivered, and swept the dark cavern with my headlamp for our 11-year-old daughter, Anna.
I've always appreciated how travel pushes me out of my comfort zone. Until I had kids, that is.
Now when I travel, between my American-style parenting and a 24-hour news cycle, I feel like my body's on high alert for every possible danger. Zika, typhoid and now COVID-19, which didn't yet exist when we took this trip. Deep underground, I guess I had to add cave flooding to my list.
We were hundreds of feet underground and a quarter-mile into the cave, trying to suss out what happened to the ancient Maya civilization that flourished from the Yucatán Peninsula in Mexico to western Honduras from around 1800 B.C. to 250 A.D.
Our guide shut off our headlamps, pitching us into darkness. He cast a flickering light against a twinkling stalagmite and the cave came to life. In the shadows, it looked like a high priest was stabbing a sacrificial victim. We gasped, and suddenly understood why the Mayans believed this cave to be the underworld.
Scientists theorize that a series of droughts, worsened by extensive logging, caused the society of millions to collapse. In desperation, they'd risked their lives in total darkness to swim, hike and climb this far in. The smashed pottery that littered the cave floor — and eventual bloodletting — was meant to appease an angry rain god. In one chamber, a calcified human skeleton known as the Crystal Maiden lay sprawled after disembowelment, the jaw jarred open as if calling out for help into perpetuity.
I supposed there were worse ways to die than cave flooding.
We had started our journey on a much sunnier spot — Ambergris Caye, Belize's largest and most commercialized island. The local people referred to me as "Mama Jenny!" It felt like an honor, like Belizeans respect the strength of a mother.