Still in her 20s, Lucy Ann Lobdell sat down to write her story, which, by 1855, included hunting in the mountains north of the Catskills and a short-lived marriage to a drunkard who abandoned her during pregnancy.
"I stole away with a heavy heart for I knew that I was going among strangers who did not know my circumstances," she wrote in her 47-page self-published memoir.
Those "circumstances" are still under debate 160 years later. Some experts insist she was a pioneer transgender person who cut her hair, dressed in men's clothing, took the name Joe and lived as a man.
Others, such as the physician who interviewed her at a New York asylum in the 1870s, said she suffered from "a case of sexual perversion" that included "Lesbian love." Scholars say it's the first time an American woman was ever formally described as a lesbian.
A recent book has rekindled the arguments about how to describe Lobdell and which pronoun to use. Experts do agree on one thing, though. When she wrote about "going among strangers" — she was talking about Minnesotans.
Lobdell arrived in Minnesota after her cover was blown while "Joe" offered dance lessons in Pennsylvania. Lobdell headed to the frontier just before Minnesota became a state in 1858. She lived around St. Paul, Lake Minnetonka and Manannah — a tiny Meeker County town between St. Cloud and Willmar.
If she wanted to get away from accusing eyes as a he, Lobdell picked a good spot — at first. None of the new Minnesota neighbors, who knew him as La-Roi, suspected anything initially.
"She could manage a gun or an ax with the skill of a man," journalist Merle Potter wrote in his 1931 story "Meeker County's Wild Woman." He said La-Roi dressed in calico from pants to vest to jacket. Lobdell befriended the unsuspecting Edwin Gribbel in St. Paul and the two shared a claim on the upper shores of Lake Minnetonka.