A helping hand - literally

Ruth Bachman didn't get depressed after her hand was amputated because of cancer.

"I didn't have time to," she said. "I had too much work to do, starting with teaching myself how to write again."

She also had to relearn how to use computer keyboards designed for two hands. She's able to reach all the keys with a minimum amount of movement. "Fortunately, I have big hands," she said. She paused before adding with a chuckle, "I mean, big hand."

She intends to use that hand to raise $1 million for cancer research. She has become an inspirational speaker and is donating 100 percent of the money she collects.

"So far, I've spoken mostly at churches," which don't tend to have a lot money for speaking fees, she said. "So it might take a while to get to $1 million."

But she's determined to make it, the same way she was determined that losing her left hand -- she was a lefty -- wouldn't slow her down.

"I've made this a mission," she said of her fund-raising. "Every day, I do something toward making this a reality."

Bachman, 61, -- part of the flower family -- realized that having people ask about the missing hand was an opportunity to broaden the discussion.

"Talking about it gives me the chance to create a healing community," she said. An accomplished public speaker who used to oversee the Guthrie Theater's education program, Bachman said she decided that her missing hand could be used to represent loss. "A lot of changes take place in our lives over which we have no control," she said. "The important thing is moving forward after the changes."

A new arrangement

Bachman had an aggressive soft-tissue cancer that she first noticed as a lump near her wrist. The cancer typically spreads so quickly that her oncologist dared try only two chemotherapy treatments before recommending amputating the hand and part of the forearm to keep the disease from racing up her arm and into the rest of her body.

"I asked if there was an alternative to amputating," she said. "My doctor said, 'Yes. Death.'"

Bachman calls her fund-raising project the Hourglass Fund. She likes the imagery.

"The sand represents us, and the narrow spot in the hourglass represents the tough times we go through," she said. "Look at the sand going through an hourglass: It's the same sand on the bottom as it was on the top, but it's arranged differently.

"That's us after we go through a tough situation -- and it doesn't have to be cancer; it can be any sort of difficult time, from losing your job to having to bury a parent. We're the same person we were before. But we have to discover what the new arrangement of the sand is and what it means. That's the challenge."

The money she is raising will be split between the University of Minnesota's Masonic Cancer Center and the Center for Spirituality & Healing. One treated her body, while the other treated her soul.

"I am a woman of fact, but I'm also a woman of faith," she said. "I have found a great source of strength in knowing that God is always with me."

"My goal is to speak to every club I can find," she said. "I'm not saying it's going to be easy [to raise $1 million], but I just need to keep going forward."

Jeff Strickler • 612-673-7392