"She'll come back."
That's what the few people I told about our cat's disappearance said. But I knew they were only trying to make me feel better.
It didn't work. I knew Lucy was gone for good.
Still a beauty at 17, with sharp green eyes and silky gray fur, ours was a headstrong cat, one who held the world in slight disdain.
When she wasn't complaining loudly to my husband or me in her odd quack-like meow, she was seeking out the best nap spot: a sun spot on the rug; one of the many blanket-filled baskets placed strategically around the house; or, for some unknown reason, the back of my head.
She also loved to go what we called "outside," but was actually the front or back porches of our Minneapolis bungalow. Our front porch caught the morning sun. The back porch, which my husband designed and built, held a table and chairs and a sofa, which Lucy (better known as the Toonces), commandeered from April to October.
She seemed pretty content with this tamer version of outside, perhaps because we had trained her to be afraid of the real thing.
Looney Tunes (another nickname) had been a farm cat for the first five years of her life. Because she had been free-range and we lived in a busy urban neighborhood, we knew we had to keep her from sneaking out. So we instituted the Scary Outdoors Training. I would carry her outside and my husband (his name is Harold, but he also has lots of nicknames) would make a loud noise to startle her and the Katzenjammer and I would run inside to certain safety.