From the bombing and manhunt in Boston to the fireball at a Texas refinery to the collapse of the Interstate 35W bridge, first responders have plunged into action, running toward danger as others flee.
The police officers, firefighters and paramedics who do so are hailed as heroes, but they don't always feel so valiant. Many are haunted by the sights, sounds and smells of carnage, especially when children are involved. Or they have doubts about whether they performed as well as they could have. Or they're angry that a rescue failed. Or grief-stricken that a person died in their arms.
For Burnsville Patrol Sgt. Richard Flaten, it was a gruesome accident early in his career, when he pulled a woman from a flaming car who died the next day. For Corinne Becker, it was finding a supervisor who had committed suicide when she worked as a young police officer in North Dakota.
Becker, a detective with the Brooklyn Center Police Department, chairs a nonprofit organization that helps first responders in the seven-county metro area deal with their stress. The Metro Critical Incident Stress Management Team is a group of about 60 law enforcement officers, firefighters, paramedics and emergency dispatchers who volunteer to talk with their peers about fatal car crashes, child injuries, burn scenes and other horrific events.
"We don't do therapy, but we set up a safe environment where a first responder can unload what they experienced and how it's affecting them," said Becker. The team responds to about 65 requests a year for debriefings, in which first responders meet within 48 to 72 hours of a critical incident to talk it out.
Some of the most troubling situations, especially for first responders early in their careers, are calls that include children, Becker said. "It's very easy for them to identify with a child who is suffering, or a child who has died, and to see the face of their own child on that victim," she said.
In other cases, a victim may remind them of a parent, close friend or relative, leaving an impression that's hard to shake.
Other particularly disturbing incidents include any time guns are used by or against law enforcement officials, suicides of co-workers, prolonged standoffs or rescues, and calls where responders personally know the victim.