One by one, they stepped up to the courtroom microphone and tried to put into words 27 years of sweeping emotion: Anguish. Anger. Fear. Sadness. Unwarranted guilt.
They did it through tears and through quivering voices, finally confronting the man who had abducted, molested and killed an 11-year-old boy whom they dearly loved and greatly missed.
Danny Heinrich was sentenced to 20 years in federal prison Monday after confessing weeks ago to the October 1989 abduction, assault and murder of Jacob Wetterling, an act so brazen and heartbreaking that it gripped a state and region for decades and changed the way parents watched over their children.
But before Heinrich was escorted from the courtroom in Minneapolis to be sent off to federal prison, those closest to Jacob — his parents, siblings and best friend — recounted in detail how the heinous crime changed them forever.
"I lived every day thinking I was the monster that night. I was the coward that left my friend. I was the coward that ran away," said friend Aaron Larson, who rode bikes with Jacob and Jacob's brother, Trevor, to rent a movie in St. Joseph that night when Heinrich, wearing a mask and carrying a gun, jumped out of the darkness and ordered two of the boys to run off before snatching Jacob.
For decades, Larson said, he couldn't handle his feelings. "I left the state. I left the country. I just wanted to be gone."
Wetterling's tearful parents described how they were grateful for community support as their son's abduction tortured them, straining their relationship, curtailing Jerry's work as a chiropractor, and affecting their ability to be a mother and a father to their three other children. They endured absurd rumors and even suspicion.
Amid recounting what they missed about Jacob — his hugs, his smile, his laughter, his jokes — Patty Wetterling addressed Heinrich directly: