John Thompson doesn't remember a lot about the North Dakota farm kid whose arms were ripped off by an auger 30 years ago and then reattached during six hours of painstaking surgery in Robbinsdale.
Much of his memory loss is due to a traumatic brain injury that was caused, he figures, by the staggering amount of blood he lost on that frigid morning in January 1992, along with all the pills he's taken to deal with anxiety in the years since.
But the 48-year-old man in the leather jacket and neatly trimmed beard says he can no longer relate to the 18-year-old high school senior who slipped and fell into a power takeoff shaft while moving barley into a grinder — making him, in a "ghastly way" as the Los Angeles Times put it, "an American hero."
"I always refer to him before the accident as somebody else, because we're not at all alike," said Thompson in a recent interview in Minneapolis.
Nevertheless, after running through a series of jobs, struggling with relationships and enduring years of therapy, what happened to Thompson that January day still largely defines who he is and what he does. He survived the accident. Surviving his celebrity has proven to be another matter entirely.
"I keep trying to get away from it, but I have nowhere else to go, so I just keep going back to it. I can't find nothing else," he said. "I try doing other things and they just haven't worked out. It always comes back to people knowing me and wanting to use me."
Thompson, who lives in Minot, N.D., rented an apartment this winter in Minneapolis. While in town he checked in with Dr. Allen Van Beek, the Edina plastic surgeon who with Dr. J. Bart Muldowney reattached his arms at North Memorial Hospital, and who has since become Thompson's friend as well as doctor.
Even three decades on, the story comes readily to mind: how Thompson, alone on the farm and without his arms, staggered 100 yards to the house, used his mouth to twist open the doorknob and clenched a pen in his teeth to dial his cousin for help.