LGBTQ+ librarians grapple with attacks on books - and on themselves

Idaho librarian June Meissner was closing up for the day at the downtown Boise Public Library when a man approached her asking for help.

As an information services librarian, answering patrons' questions is part of Meissner's day-to-day work, and serving the community is one of her favorite parts of the job.

But when the man got close enough, ''he took a swing at me and tried to punch me in the head,'' said Meissner, a transgender woman. ''I blocked it and he started yelling slurs and suggesting that he was going to come back and kill me.''

Worldwide Pride Month events are well underway to celebrate LGBTQ+ culture and rights. But it is coming at a time when people who identify as LGBTQ+ say they are facing increasing difficulties at work, ranging from being repeatedly misgendered to physically assaulted.

Gender nonconforming library workers in particular, like Meissner, are also grappling with growing calls for book bans across the U.S., with books about gender identity, sexual orientation and race topping the list of most criticized titles and making the attacks all the more personal.

''When we see attacks on those books, we have to understand that those are attacks on those kinds of people as well,'' said Emily Drabinski, who is the president of the American Library Association and is gay. ''To have my identity weaponized against libraries and library workers, the people and institutions I care about the most, has made it a difficult and painful year.''

The ALA said it documented the highest-ever number of titles targeted for censorship in 2023 in more than 20 years of tracking -- 4,240. That total surpassed 2022's previous record by 65%, with Maia Kobabe's coming-of-age story "Gender Queer" topping the list for most criticized library book for the third straight year.

''I do think that a lot of that political speech around it does make things more dangerous and worse for me,'' Meissner said. ''It is so much politicking and getting the general public riled up.''

Meissner's own attacker was arrested and convicted, and she says that while the vast majority of her interactions at work are positive, she still struggles to let her guard down and is constantly assessing whether a situation could turn unsafe.

''As somebody who is working face to face with the public and trying to help people as much as possible, that really does get in the way,'' she told The Associated Press, describing how she waits to make eye contact with a patron "and then, based on what I see when they look at me, that'll tell me whether or not I should just be on edge, be wary.''

Florida-based conservative nonprofit Moms for Liberty, which describes itself as a parental rights organization and refers to its members as ''joyful warriors,'' has been at the forefront of a nationwide push to remove books that deal with race and gender identity.

But co-founder Tiffany Justice says the organization — which she says has more than 300 chapters in 48 states and more than 130,000 active members — is not anti-LGBTQ+, although Justice herself told the AP she thinks that the Q in the acronym, which stands for queer or questioning, ''needs to go into the trash bin.'' And according to the ALA's Office for Intellectual Freedom, about 38% of book challenges that ''directly originated'' from Moms for Liberty activity have LGBTQ+ themes.

''The least interesting thing about a child should be their sexual orientation,'' Justice said. ''Why are we flooding them with sexual content?''

Despite the thousands of petitions to censor books about gender and sex, legal standards for deeming materials obscene or harmful to minors — and therefore not protected speech under the First Amendment — are very specific and high, and courts have historically sided with libraries, according to Vera Eidelman, a staff attorney for the American Civil Liberties Union who focuses on rights to free speech in the digital age.

''The mere fact that something is describing sex, describing nudity, even depicting those things, is not enough to make it qualify as obscenity," she said.

Regardless, the book banning movement has in many cases successfully restricted access to materials in which LGBTQ+ youth can see themselves depicted.

As of June 1, Louisiana libraries must allow parents or guardians to decide which books their child can check out. M'issa Fleming, a public librarian in New Orleans who uses they/them pronouns, says the new law could make it even more dangerous for queer and trans kids, who are already at higher risk of being victims of violence, substance use, and suicide than their straight, cisgender peers. And losing access to LGBTQ+ themed books may cause kids to turn to less reliable sources like Reddit.

Chaz Carey, a children's librarian in Worthington, Ohio, knows firsthand how powerful books can be. Alison Bechdel's 2006 graphic memoir ''Fun Home," in which the author comes to grips with her sexual orientation, changed Carey's life as a teenager.

''I felt seen. It was like my whole body just let out a breath," said Carey, who is queer and uses they/them pronouns. ''It is just so important that these books remain on shelves. They save lives.''

Carey says being a children's librarian is a dream job, but the rise in book challenges and anti-LGBTQ+ rhetoric takes a mental toll. They are frequently misgendered at work, including by some patrons who go out of their way to do so while airing their political beliefs.

''The political environment is just an extra kind of weight as we navigate our lives and our places in our community," said Carey, who chairs ALA's Rainbow Roundtable, which aims to serve the information needs of LGBTQ+ people.

For Carey, what helps is ''taking some time to feel sad, but then choosing queer joy and pride.''