Q So, you're sitting in a black-tie audience at Lincoln Center's Avery Fisher Hall, your wife and business partner Nancy St. Pierre is at your side, and your category finally comes up. Can you describe that moment, from your perspective of a four-time nominee?
A Every year, that point in the awards becomes more and more stressful. This is the first year where I thought I had a better chance than the previous years, but I was sitting there thinking, 'I can't take this.' When they said my name, Nancy and I looked at each other, then we hugged each other. I went from being sick with nerves and thinking I was going to have a heart attack, to incredible joy, in a second. Like that [snaps fingers]. Going up on stage wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I didn't know what I would do if I did win, but you're so happy that whatever nervousness you have is second fiddle to how happy you are. I can't remember the last time I was so happy. Everything suddenly had such a shine to it.
Q I loved that you and Nancy walked to the podium together, hand in hand. Was that planned?
A I can't take credit for the success I've had, or the success that the restaurants have had, without her. I wouldn't feel right leaving her sitting down there. Although most people recognize her more than they recognize me, because she's out on the floor, she doesn't get a lot of the glory. I just really wanted her to be as much a part of it as possible.
Q What does it mean for you to win the James Beard award?
A On a personal level, I've always been really insecure about how my peers feel about my work. There has always been a part of me that has felt like a little bit of an impostor. I don't feel like I'm the same kind of chef as a lot of other chefs. And now I feel like I'm legitimate, that I have the respect of my peers. That's nice.
Q How about for the people working at 112 Eatery and Bar La Grassa?
A I know how I would have felt, had I been a sous chef or a line cook in a restaurant where the chef won a James Beard award. It would have been great. What's funny is, I remember when I was a chef at [Cafe] Lurcat. We worked so hard, and the reviews were not so great, and it was such a terrible feeling to walk in to the kitchen and say, 'Sorry, guys, maybe we'll get them next time.' This is the opposite of that feeling. Everyone here feels great. It's nice to be able to say, 'You're all part of this. You've all contributed to the success.' Especially Denny [Leaf-Smith, chef de cuisine at 112 Eatery] and Erik Sather [chef de cuisine at Bar La Grassa]. I couldn't do this alone. And for me, it legitimizes their work, too. They're working hard. They're being recognized.