Family members sifted through a storage tub of scrapbooks and mementos in 2019 after Ralph Nasch died at 98 in Mesa, Ariz. There they found a green composition notebook containing 80 haunting, handwritten poems among the items tucked away by the retired Air Force lieutenant colonel, who grew up in St. Paul.
Ralph's mother, Martha Nasch, wrote the poems during more than six years locked up against her will at St. Peter State Hospital, from 1928 to 1934.
"From then, I was forsaken, / By husband, child and friend. / And put in a dungeon, / To suffer with no end," reads part of a poem titled "Forgotten." Another one, "Thoughts," includes this verse: "I'm millions of miles from nowhere. / I have no world, not a home … / To those I one time knew / On Earth, wide and blue, / I'll send them my thoughts in a poem."
More than a half-century since her death in 1970 at age 80, Martha's words have resurfaced. Her granddaughter, Jodi Nasch Decker, and great-granddaughter, Janelle Molony, both of the Phoenix area, have chronicled her life and compiled her poetry in a self-published 316-page book, "Poems From the Asylum." (tinyurl.com/AsylumPoems)
"While her story is harrowing, it also shows her remarkable resolve and in a sense vindicates her in a tale of redemption and resilience," said Decker, who is Ralph's daughter and teaches public speaking at Glendale Community College.
Decker and Molony, a writing teacher and author, researched the life of Martha — known as Patient 20864 — and dissected her poetry, which advocated for fellow patients at St. Peter and detailed the horrors of force feeding and other grim practices of the era.
Though originally committed by her husband for what doctors considered a case of nerves, Martha "ultimately was not mentally ill," according to Molony.
Researching the rudimentary state of anesthesiology back then, the mother-daughter authors theorize that Martha's breakdown might have stemmed from intubation during a mysterious surgery she underwent in 1927, possibly gynecological. When surgeons put a tube down her throat, it could have affected nerves in her tongue or jaw — leaving her unable to taste or swallow.