Nothing and everything has changed for John Thompson since his friend Philando Castile was shot and killed during what began as a routine traffic stop.
Thursday marks the anniversary of the day the world was introduced to a dying Castile, an officer's gun trained on him, as his girlfriend livestreamed the shooting's aftermath on Facebook. In the ensuing year, he became known as not just the latest black man shot and killed by police, but a beloved nutrition services supervisor who doted on schoolchildren.
Protesters took to the streets both before and after Jeronimo Yanez, the St. Anthony police officer who shot Castile, was charged and later found not guilty.
To Thompson, Yanez's acquittal shattered hopes that Minnesota would buck the national trend in police prosecutions. The anniversary delivered little if any satisfaction that the criminal justice system had improved for black citizens, particularly black men.
"It's going to be a long time for me to pull myself together," Thompson said.
Castile's death and Yanez's trial in June drew national scrutiny in the wake of acquittals of police officers who faced similar charges for fatally shooting unarmed black men. A Ramsey County jury deliberated for a week before acquitting Yanez.
In reaching the not-guilty verdict, two jurors later said their debate hinged on the definition of reckless negligence and on whether Yanez feared for his life. Further, they said, squad car video didn't show inside the car or where Castile's hands were.
"I worry that this case will corrode people's faith in the criminal justice system," said Chiraag Bains, a visiting senior fellow at Harvard's Criminal Justice Policy Program. "You can do everything right and still get shot."