Duane Fredrickson's 23 years as a police officer were a carousel of horrors that haunt him to this day.
Countless shootings. Suicides. Baby-not-breathing calls.
He grew increasingly despondent and withdrawn, especially after his marriage collapsed and his police colleagues began shunning him for turning in a fellow officer accused of stealing. At times, he thought about taking his own life.
"You're taught when you get on the job you're supposed to be strong and you can take it and everything, but when some of these things happen, it's kind of like a train going off the track," said Fredrickson, who is retired and credits a support group for officers with saving his life. "You go talk about it with your buddies over a drink or you bury it — and once you internalize over a certain point, it explodes."
The recent suicides of two Twin Cities-area police officers has again put a spotlight on the collateral hazards of police work, while raising questions for law enforcement leaders on how to persuade officers to seek help for depression and other mental health issues. For years, officer suicides have outpaced deaths in the line of duty nationwide, experts and law enforcement officials say.
South St. Paul Police Chief William Messerich, whose department lost an officer to suicide in November, said some officers still believe that whatever they say to a therapist will get back to their supervisors or colleagues and could get them ruled unfit for duty. As a result, many don't seek help, he says.
"Everybody deals with things in different ways; some people will hold on to that stuff and let it linger, and they'll carry it with them for a long time, and others don't," said Messerich, who said he's considering requiring biannual mental health checks.
Before taking his own life on Nov. 5, South St. Paul police Sgt. Cory Slifko had a decorated 20-year career in which he had landed coveted assignments on the department's SWAT team and with a regional drug task force, officials said. Slifko's death came on the same day that Rogers police officer Blake Neumann, who had been at his job five years, also took his own life. Minneapolis lost one of its own officers, department veteran John LaLuzerne, 52, to suicide in October 2018.