Darnella Frazier has been hailed as a hero by many for bringing George Floyd's death in Minneapolis police custody to the world's eyes and aiding the criminal prosecution by recording it in a video viewed millions of times. But her testimony in court Tuesday revealed a deep vein of trauma that haunts the teenager, whose trip to buy snacks forever altered her life.
Frazier's vulnerability was underscored when three other witnesses, who were also minors at the time, testified in the murder trial of former officer Derek Chauvin. They told the court they immediately knew something was wrong when they came upon the scene but felt helpless and feared for their safety as officers ignored their pleas to stop restraining Floyd, pushed other bystanders and shook a can of Mace at them.
Frazier recorded the longest independent video of what happened to Floyd on May 25 outside Cup Foods in Minneapolis.
"When I look at George Floyd I look at my dad, I look at my brothers, I look at my cousins, my uncles, because they are all Black," said Frazier, her voice faltering. "I have a Black father, I have a Black brother, I have Black friends. I look at that and I look at how it could have been one of them."
Hennepin County District Judge Peter Cahill allowed testimony from Frazier and the three witnesses who followed to be broadcast via audio on a livestream of the trial but prohibited video broadcast of them because they were all juveniles at the time.
The day's testimony ended with a Minneapolis firefighter who happened upon the scene while off duty. She recounted how she immediately knew Floyd needed help and desperately tried to render aid only to be rebuffed by police. Chauvin is on trial for second- and third-degree murder and second-degree manslaughter.
Frazier, 18, was 17 when she and her 9-year-old cousin, Judeah Reynolds, went to Cup Foods to buy snacks. She recounted how she ushered her cousin inside the store to protect her while she positioned herself near the back of a squad car and used her cellphone to record Chauvin kneeling on Floyd's neck for more than nine minutes.
"I've stayed up apologizing and apologizing to George Floyd for not doing more and not physically interacting and not saving his life," said a tearful Frazier. "It's not what I should have done; it's what [Chauvin] should have done."