Chapter 4 continues
The story so far: Katka makes it through the "lucky line."
Katka found the train. She boarded it and took her seat in a small compartment occupied by a man who looked to be her age. He nodded politely to her and she nodded back. "No English," he said in a thick German accent. "Sorry."
She didn't feel like talking. When the locomotive lurched forward, her hands began to tremble. She took the photograph out of her pocket. She had glanced at it earlier. Now she had time to study it. There she was, just as Paul had described. Her dark hair blowing in the wind. Her face serene. And there he was. Paul Schmidt, with his locks as curly as a girl's. His hands were in his pockets. In contrast to her serious face, his showed just a hint of mischief. The photographer had told them to stay still, but he looked as if he were trying to suppress a smile. His lips were pursed together, but his dimples were showing. They looked relaxed, happy. They were completely oblivious to the fact that a large lightning bolt had cut its way through the sky. If the lightning bolt had been a millimeter longer, it would have cut the two in half. The way it was, the bolt stood just above them.
Katka began to miss him. She shouldn't have left him. She shouldn't have boarded the train. Surely, there was something she could have done. But the woman — the woman who gave her the photo — had told her to go. She put the photo away, but her hands kept shaking. Finally, she rested her hands on her knees. Then her feet began to tap, nervously. It was as if there was something inside her that simply could not stay put. The energy came out of her like bees fleeing a burning hive. For the first time in many months, she began to cry. She missed her mother. She missed her father. She missed Paul. Her tears were soft at first, like a lady. She tried to stifle them, as a man would. Finally, she gave up and the sobbing came out of her erratically, like a child who had been hurt but was unable to articulate how.
The man in her compartment handed her a handkerchief. "Nicht weinen, Fraulein," he said. "No cry." The man handed her a small flask of liquid. She waved it away.
"Trinken," he said. She took the flask to her lips and swallowed. The liquid burned her throat and stomach. "Ein weider," he said, gesturing for her to take another swig. She did.
Soon, she was asleep. Fitfully, she dreamed of her mother, not in her last days, when she had been bedridden, moaning and incoherent. But earlier. Picking berries in the sun, her bonnet hanging down her back. Her mother had loved the sun. She had visions of her father, who was a broken man in many ways. He always wanted to own his own land, but something always interfered. When she awoke, her thoughts returned to Paul. Did he own land in America? Was he still in America or had they sent him back to Slovenia?