Sara Sidner makes sure to never cry at work, not while covering the Libyan civil war, Mumbai terrorist attacks or riots in Ferguson, Mo.
Last Sunday, she broke her rule.
It happened when Minneapolis Police Chief Medaria Arradondo unexpectedly dropped by the site where George Floyd perished and agreed to chat with the CNN correspondent. At one point, Sidner relayed a question from the victim's brother, who was listening in from the family home.
When the cameras switched off, Sidner handed her microphone to a crew member, told everyone to leave her alone and sat down on a nearby stoop. Then, she lost it.
"I just started bawling," she said the next day, speaking from her car at the same location, minutes before going back on the air. "I've never done that before in the presence of other people. I'm a woman, and I want to show I can handle it, that I can shoulder anything. But that was hard. I couldn't be reporter Sara. I was just human Sara. There was something about the compassion that the chief showed and the reaction from the Floyd family. I couldn't suppress my emotions anymore."
It didn't help that the veteran reporter was operating on just a couple hours of sleep, standard operation since she flew into the Twin Cities on May 27. But maybe it was also the idea that a city best known for Mary Richards' sunny-side-up spirit and Prince's feel-good music had turned into a war zone.
"No one is ever going to think of Minneapolis the same way again," she said.
CBS correspondent Jeff Pegues has also had difficulty recognizing the city he lived in during the mid-1990s while working on a short-lived UPN show.