For those of you who’ve been there, please tell me this: Can you ever get over the loss of your first dog? How do you know if your heart is ready for another?
It’s been nearly six years since our red Rhodesian Ridgeback passed away. I refuse to eulogize him, as Memphis was complicated. He could be ornery, sometimes aggressive. He distrusted strangers who rang the doorbell, from delivery men to friends who wore hats.
He counter-surfed indiscriminately and wolfed down food as if he feared he would never be fed again. Once I came home from work, stunned to find he had torn into a childproof bottle of women’s multivitamins. The floor told the story like an unsophisticated crime scene: My eyes darted from the bottle crushed with giant teeth imprints, to a trail of pills, and finally to a puddle of neon yellow vomit. (Memphis was OK, and that’s not how he died.)
I say all this to underscore that my dog was flawed. But he was the dog love of my life.

There are a million reasons not to get a new puppy, especially if you value a good night’s sleep, going on trips, or having intact furniture. I don’t miss having a dog, I’ve told people over the years. I just miss Memphis.
Lately, though, I’ve had some feelings. Every now and then, a terrier mix sitting nicely on a sidewalk patio or a cousin’s professorial-looking chocolate Labradoodle will unearth a softness inside me.
Like a divorcée barely dipping her toe into dating apps, for many months I’ve casually scrolled through the pictures of “adoptable dogs” on rescue sites. My sons have been begging for a puppy for years, and I promised we’d start looking.
Last week one online listing stopped me cold. He was a hound mix with oversized ears and a red coat, with forehead wrinkles atop his hazel-amber eyes. He looked just like Memphis the day we brought him home.