The heartbreak arrived at 5:30 a.m. Saturday, through a phone call from her state representative.
Nicole Smith-Holt had been hopeful up until the final hours of the legislative special session that there would be enough support at the Capitol to pass an emergency insulin program this year that had been inspired in part by the death of her son.
But what had seemed like almost a sure thing instead was lost in the confusion of 11th-hour budget negotiations, potential clerical oversights, contradictory accounts from lawmakers and, ultimately, industry opposition.
Smith-Holt had spent at least two hours a day fighting for a bill intended to save the lives of diabetics like her son, Alec Smith, who died because the cost of insulin forced him to ration his medication. Smith-Holt, who has become a national figure in the battle against spiking insulin costs, said the effort to create a safety net for people in her home state is not over.
"We're not going to back down on this," she said.
Lawmakers on both sides of the aisle are ready to take up the issue again. Senate Majority Leader Paul Gazelka, R-Nisswa, said he expects to return to the measure in the next legislative session, which begins Feb. 11. A spokesman for Democratic Gov. Tim Walz said he would sign it into law.
So why did the bill, which had bipartisan support, fail to pass this year? Some legislators said they had concerns about the program's logistics, while others were worried about the funding source. But the proposal's fate was ultimately decided in complex end-of-session negotiations that happened outside the public eye.
Rep. Tina Liebling, the House DFL chairwoman for the health and human services committee, said that during one of the final negotiating sessions she asked her Senate counterpart, Republican Sen. Michelle Benson, whether the insulin provision was going to end up in the final version of the massive health and human services bill.