Every visual artist "breaks out" in their own way. Sometimes, part of that is breaking in.
Jovan Speller arrived in the Twin Cities in a way that didn't quite make sense, but through all of the turmoil and unexpected change, a creative vision has emerged.
A recipient of the 2016-17 Jerome Foundation Emerging Artists grant, Speller has been using the funds to finish her photography series "Black Quiet," which was connected to a traumatic experience she had while working at Rochester Art Center.
"Black Quiet" began with the striking photograph "And I shall call you home" (2016), a slide-projection image that shows a woman, back turned, hair wrapped in a head wrap and with a body chain across her back, perched nude on a wooden chair in the corner of a snow-covered landscape. It captured the sentiment she was experiencing during this upset to her life. Speller, who prefers to be behind the camera composing the story, began this series as a way to process.
Originally from Los Angeles and now living in Minneapolis, Speller arrived in rural Eyota, Minn., just east of Rochester, after she was offered land by a woman she met while taking a design course. She wound up working at Rochester Art Center, first as an art teacher at its summer camp in 2014, then as a curator in the arts and education department in 2015. But leadership soon shifted at the organization. Within a month after Megan Johnston became executive director that fall, Speller was asked to resign. She refused to do so, and was fired for "personality differences." She was one of 10 full-time employees (out of 11) who quit or were dismissed before the center's board fired Johnston last January amid a burgeoning budget deficit and allegations of a hostile work environment.
The experience led Speller to go inward. "I had to draw upon this reservoir for strength and self-knowledge and really start over again," she said.
On a theoretical level, her "Black Quiet" series is closely aligned with what Kevin Quashie writes about in his book "The Sovereignty of Quiet: Beyond Resistance in Black Culture."
"He references a lot of texts that go past a consciousness as doubleness," said Speller. Double consciousness, a term coined by black civil rights pioneer W.E.B. DuBois, is something that many people of color experience — feeling as if one's identity is divided into multiple parts. Comedian Issa Rae often deals with it in her HBO show "Insecure" — people of color have to shift between how they view themselves and how they might be perceived by white people.